Diana Duong

Old post repost, so maybe I’ll look back on it one day. 

HIS IS A LONG ASS POST… you can read it if you want. I just started typing and didnt stop LOL MY BAD——

Before we start disbanding this group… even though i was being a sore loser and was pissed at the unfairness of the result, I was still proud of us at the end of the day. We were all fresh and united in battle and rocked the cyphers and we know it. No judge can define what I believe (im like really against judges now lol). Anyways you guys are the closest thing to a family and a crew to me so thank you all for the experience and pleasure of battling with you all. I enjoyed every moment we had together sweating and complaining and grooving and laughing. It was a bittersweet end to my last SFF with Bodyrock. 

Shoutouts to: 
Clarence - for being the best president a VP can ask for. thank you for waking my lazy ass up for sessions (that I called), for handling all the organizing, for being down and open to every experience, and for being the most committed and inspiring leader I could easily support. you’re definitely not underqualified. 

Anthony - for keepin it real and yelling at me when I need to get my shit together HAHA, and for having beautiful airplane windmills. seriously I thought that move alone was enough to take that entire battle!!! AND you were clean the WHOLE TIME but whatever. thanks for helping everyone (and myself) improve esp on power moves!

Justin - my VP partner! you did good buddy. if only you came out more to party/tan/battle/drink with me then we would have shared all our feelings BUT ALAS NEVER DOWN! jkjk we had some good times and you know i got your back. seriously you (and anthony) should be next years presidents if you wanted to. *cough hint

Ann - dang girl you had a looooot of things on your plate to deal with this year. Be proud of yourself and take it easy. thank you for opening up to us this year and being more involved, despite all the things you had to do AND you were always clean in battle. I really appreciated that you communicated with us and tried your best to come out.

Lucio - ABRACCIOOOO! T_T I’m sorry i was being sad at the jam but thank you for cheering me up and making sure i don’t kill somebody. We both beat ourselves up about doing better than we should have, but you control yourself much better than I can, and I respect that and everything else you have done with Bodyrock. I learned a lot from you and I hope you learned a lot being with us before you go back home. I’ll miss you when you leave! :)

DK - president of your church group…. smh…. JUST KIDDING! You did really well in your round and KILLED the beat. you didn’t grandpa out of it! I’m so proud T^T

Jason - omgah i was like where did this guy come from! not breaking at the beginning of the year and then decided to join the squad out of nowhere LOL well I’m glad you did, and you better for the next two years with airflares and 90s just saying LIL BOY btw if you want exams and shit you can ask me anytime LOL

Adam - YOU CHANGED!!!! haha jk but I love your munchmills…. can i have them? I’ll endorse your breaking skills on LinkedIn.

Ray - Be nice!!!!!! Sometimes it is what it is and you just gotta learn from mistakes to do better next time. you got some weeeeeeeeeeeeird shit but i think you have a lot of potential. presence is there. energy is there. just clean it up and strategize.

DT - I already said this but I’ll say it again, thanks for avenging us and growing some ballsacks. I would be scared too so props for not being prepared at all and advancing!

And of course people who helped us train for the big day: Billy, Aaron, Tim, Allen, David. & everyone in the club for the love and support (freshies). Love you all.

i think my ex got dumped by his girlfriend. i feel so free from the guilt that he dumped on me for everything being my fault for not being able to maintain a healthy relationship, that im young and unstable, that i’m naive and “slutty,” or that I should have listened to everything he said, allow him to rule my life, push me around, and threaten my morality and pride.

I now know that it wasn’t my fault for the destruction on our past relationship because he put all the blame on me. this was like 2 years ago but an abusive relationship can go a long way. 

I gave him way too many chances to make it work. Thank god I dodged a bullet and found an angel. :)

After I told my friend, she was like “Maybe you should write him and say: im sorry it didnt work out but I TOLD YA you had issues” HAHAHA MAYBE I WILL BUT HES NOT WORTHY.

My parents never went to college. My mom didn’t finish middle school. Here’s my list of aggravating cons and secretive pros that make me who I am today. I feel like I need to express this somewhere because its making me super emo.

Pros:

-they don’t know what a “good” SAT score is, or even what an SAT test is. So when I told them its a test and I got a 1740, they thought it was a good score… when its only average. Can’t be blamed for not studying enough.

-When I applied to colleges, I declared myself as a Theater major in half the programs I applied to. They thought I was on the path to becoming a doctor and never found out. In the end, I switched to biology anyway so it worked out for them.

Cons

-They don’t know what a Pharmacist is/does aaand I’m pursuing that career path. 

-They don’t know how stressful finals are, or what Finals even is. And the worst thing about it is that they still call me to run errands despite me telling them that I can’t and I need to focus. Many fights and suicidal thoughts rose from this because they don’t value what I think is important. An example from today: I have 4 finals in a couple days and my dad wants me to drive back home on a weekday, stuck in traffic, to fix my car. He eventually argued with me about now having to wait 2 weeks for the next opportunity is more important than studying, because I can “study anytime”. He’ll never understand because he never went to school. There’s nothing I can really do about it. I think I gave up fighting them because their experiences will always be different from mine.

-They don’t know what school I go to, they get mixed up between UCSD, USD, SDSU. haha PRETTY SAD… but I just ignore it and accept that they aren’t raised here and they will never understand.

-I’m really distant from my family. LIKE REALLY. I don’t have a strong vietnamese background because I’m so detached from my parents while growing up in American culture. But in the end, we have countless fights anyway about where I belong.

I’m never really sure of who I am and being torn between two stressful entities doesn’t help my psychological state at all.